Psalm 37: 4 “Delight yourself in the Lord and he will
give you the desires of your heart”
I married Gerry,I wanted my independance, a lovely home, beautiful children, but somehow it all went wrong!! I left home!!
That was the beginning of
God’s intervention in our failure. Jesus Christ appeared to me in a dream, I was
compelled to return to Gerry.
1 Corinthians 7: 10 – 11:
Read this scripture if you
have a Bible, it says a wife should not leave her husband but if she does she
should remain single or else be reconciled to her husband. Of course I knew
nothing about Gods marriage instructions written in the Bible, never having
read one, and I certainly was not interested in knowing that.
Gerry was very keen to make things work this time around though so he decided to give
me my heart’s desire, an MGB sports car. I quickly found my perfect cream
coloured MGB, it remained my pride and joy for the next six years.Amazingly
God began working (behind the scenes, in our lives) Gerry was given a fantastic
new job opportunity which meant we had to pack up and move.God
had already gone before us; he had prepared a beautiful new home, just for us;
we moved back to the south of England. It was here in a little Anglican Church that I finally had my Damascus road experience and began to follow Jesus Christ. I really was an unlikely convert!!
Always a rebel with a bad attitude and a hard heart to boot! I know this will sound like a bit of a cliché but; I once had been blind… now I could see. I find it difficult to put into words the amazing difference believing and trusting in God had on my life, my attitude and my heart. People can scoff at Christians and conversion stories but truly my eyes had been opened I could understand so much that previously had kept me a prisoner in darkness and despair, it was like turning on an electric light:
Acts 26 14 – 18: Read this scripture passage if you have a Bible, it
recounts how God called Saul to go to people and open their eyes, then they
could repent and experience the love of God and the fullness of life. This was
and is necessary because the God of this world (Satan) keeps people locked in
the darkness of sin and unbelief.Finally the presence of God in the world (the
Holy Spirit) was able to help us in our struggles!!
Money issues had to be
addressed, in faith I sold my beloved MGB and took to the road on a bicycle; complete with child seat on the rear we travelled the school route for the next few years.In the year 1990 I began to feel an assurance that I would soon have a car,
strangely I had not been thinking or praying for such a request;
nether-the-less I knew deep inside that I would soon have a car again. And so
it proved; one day I was handed the keys to a blue Volvo estate. It soon became
abundantly clear why I had needed a car as sudden frequent trips to hospital
over many weeks would have been very difficult without one; God had provided at just the right time.
A few years later Gerry wanted to buy a blue BMW but I had set my heart on a
brand new car. Gerry was adamant though, he wanted to buy it. I began to pray
and seek the Lord; suddenly I heard an inner voice,
”Buy the car.” Wow, Gerry was ‘over the moon’ when I said ok lets buy
the BMW. And so again the BMW proved to be a blessing (from God). After 4 years Gerry did actually decide to buy a brand new car, a Toyota,
this enabled him to give me the BMW, again God’s perfect timing as I began my
own small catering business from home, without the BMW I would certainly have had to buy a suitable car to transport all the food and catering equipment.
Php 4:6 …….”Do not be anxious about anything, but in
everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God.”
This is wonderful advice, lets try to keep a contented attitude trusting God to lead and direct us in the right way at the right time, it really can be a
blessing; if we can…..Trust with that childlike faith.
We had the BMW for 15 years and during that time it faithfully served us as a
family car, we travelled extensively across Europe,
it fetched and carried for us and never once in all those years failed us. It
passed every MOT, even after 156000.00 miles, God is good!!
So it was with much sadness that I began to pray and seek the Lord. The double
sunroof had been leaking for a couple of years, now I was retired I did not
need such a large car. Driving home from working as a volunteer at Revelation
TV I had been listening to a Gaithers
CD; the singers were giving testimonies about Gods working in their lives,
suddenly the CD just stopped. Now I had been praying for a sign!! Regarding the
car, but I am usually a little wary of reading too much into seeing …strange
car number plates. The Bible says we should test the spirits to see if they are
from God! Amazingly the car immediately in front of me had a number plate which
read: END. I followed that car all the way home; where I tried to ‘fix’ the
broken CD player, this proved impossible as I tried to open the boot the whole
lock and key came away in my hand! It was then that I realized God was saying
to me this is the END for me and the BMW.
I prayed, Lord what next? That’s when I heard a clear instruction come from deep
within, give away the BMW; OK Lord I prayed send me the person you want me to give it to.
Gerry and I went looking at brand new small cars, (my love of sports cars pushed to the depths of my heart keeping a,’sensible attitude.’) We decided to buy a small car, a CV1.
Amazingly while telling a friend she suddenly said ‘Angie’ I’m selling my car, come and see!
A beautiful sporty Peugeot Cabriolet awaited my inspection and of course I fell
in love with it immediately!! What can I say; God gave me the desire of my
heart, overriding my urge to be sensible!!
I gave the BMW away to a very happy man; I believe God will allow it a few more
years of faithful service.
Let my prayer be set forth before You as
incense, and the lifting up of my hands as the evening sacrifice. Psalm 141:
